I've been bying into lies since coming back here to ASU. I listened to voices telling me I haven't grown and should've gone elsewhere instead of Holland. I'm being told my 24/7 scheduale still isn't enough. I'm being told because one of my friends reads the Bible faster than I that I am inadequate. I am being told who i thought was my close friend was really just looking for someone better than I all along. I'm being told to be liked I must act differently than I feel. I'm being told nothing is of value that i do and i am not good at or for anything. I am being told i have been foolish thinking people would even bother to care for me.
I know it's all lies in my head but sometimes my heart says otherwise...just stick with me guys as i work through it. This song by Casting Crowns is my plea right now. I'm feeling like no one gets me for me and perhaps that is because i don't even get me right now or why i say things i don't really want to say.
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Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
Chorus:
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
