I've been in a weird place lately. Not necessarily spiritually, but thinking about a certain situation a lot. Sometimes I start imagining how things could work out a certain way or fall into place. I know...i know...we make plans and God laughs right? But, sometimes it is nice to dream. I feel like there is a lot going on around me lately. Like a cyclone is all around me and i am in the calm eye seeing it all occur. I want to jump in and be in the game with everyone else but fear stops me. I'm afraid to be hurt. I push away when all I desire is to be drawn in.
But here I stand in the the center with my dreams, thoughts, and schoolwork while the drama swirls around. My dreams begin to be sucked into the drama and yet I want to keep them here far away from corruption and someone being able to steal them away. My vision gets foggy as the cyclone whips across my face and I squint to still be able to see clearly.
I love the fact Solomon was the wisest man ever and the first thing he talks about is dealing with the opposite sex! Psalm 118:9 says, "It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in princes." Though talking about political leaders, I like to think of it as a reminder of the old christian cliche that 'a woman should be so lost in God that a man has to seek God to find her.' So that's what I'm working on...getting lost in God. I pray one day God has a future husband who seeks Him and isn't afraid to pursue me!
2 comments:
I really like hearing your perspective on this. I usually get really frustrated, feeling that I am the only one thinking it's worth it to wait to give my heart away at all/have a boyfriend or whatever (including the guy I'm waiting for...I generally assume there's no one waiting). I'm glad to see I am not the only only who believes it's worth waiting... :)
i love you.
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