02 May 2009

Mental Block


I haven't blogged because frankly I don't feel as if I have much to say lately. It's how I feel about most of my life right now. I feel a mental block. Emotions have been flooding over me this past week as I've had a lot of "lasts." Last SALT meeting, last day of class, last Nav Night, last cut from an art project for a grade (hopefully...i still have a week until my project is due!), last discipleship meeting, last time fountain hopping....a lot of lasts. I'm excited for next year and the "new thing" God has told me He will be doing, but I can't help crying while I thank Him for the old things I have and He has blessed me with while in the desert these four years. My first Navigator meeting I walked into the room and met a lot of people. The first worship song we sang was "Blessed Be Your Name." There is a line in the song that says,
Blessed Be Your name When I'm found in the desert place.

You see, it was at that time God put a peace in my heart I couldn't then describe.
For the first time I realized I was in the desert. I was in a place God needed
to humble me and let me have His name be blessed and not my own. He needed me
to praise Him for who He is. And through the process, God has given me great
gifts found in amazing friends to encourage and teach me along the way. As I
was reaching out in the desert, I thank God for His hand already being there
ready to grasp mine and help me up. I'm ready to leave the desert. But the
tears may still come as I move into the "new thing" God has in store.
To all my friends in the desert with me...thank you.

4 comments:

Gabriel said...

Blessed Be Your name When I'm found in the desert place.

You see, it was at that time God put a peace in my heart I couldn't then describe. For the first time I realized I was in the desert. I was in a place God needed to humble me and let me have His name be blessed and not my own. He needed me to praise Him for who He is. And through the process, God has given me great gifts found in amazing friends to encourage and teach me along the way. As I was reaching out in the desert, I thank God for His hand already being there ready to grasp mine and help me up. I'm ready to leave the desert. But the tears may still come as I move into the "new thing" God has in store.

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The best part.

Sarah said...

Isaiah 43:18-19
I'm excited for you and this new thing/season God is calling you into. Press on even though it is hard. He has plans do to a work in and through you. love you!

Ayeser said...

I want to add "ditto" to what both Gabe and Sarah said, this is a beautiful post and in the same way God has made you a huge blessing to ASU, He will also do HUGE things through your work with Edge.

Hopefully I'll keep hearing through the grapevine how God is working in your life. :-)

Lauren Elise said...

"Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her.
There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope.
There she will sing as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt.
Hosea 2:14-15

This passage has always spoken to me about why God brought me to the desert. I'm glad he brought us here together, for whatever reasons :]